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Abandoned Military Camp

Lost in the rolling green hills of central Taranaki, lies a place not many people know about. My father introduced me to this historic site when I was a child, and told me it was a secret. He had used the military camp when he was training at school as a young boy. It was then, 50-60 years ago, that the camp closed down and let nature consume what was left.

Today I returned to that site, not being there since I was a child myself, unaware of just how much it had changed.

Heads up: I wouldn’t walk through this place at night time.

Photo by Adambutchart

From the outside, it looks nothing more than just an old farmers shed that’s been forgotten about. But what’s inside is far more appealing…

Crawling over the wooden fences, worming my way around the pillars, I entered the place I haven’t seen in years.

Straight away, my heart dropped. This place looks completely and utterly haunted. The wooden benches attached to the concrete wall stuck out just as I had remembered. The long grass crept down the edge of the concrete, creating a waterfall effect, adding to the eeriness.

Finally some good news, I found a friend! This little guy scuttled away from me so quick I thought I had seen a ghost.

As I ventured through this not-so-wonderland, I felt incredibly isolated. The only signs of life were the spiders hanging down from their webs, which I had to avoid in order to keep my sanity.

Finally, some light. The last standing target from this military camp is riddled with bullet holes. I began to feel incredibly overwhelmed by the history of this place and left to scour the parameter.

From an aeroplane, you wouldn’t know this was here. I think that was the point in the first place. Somewhere you could actually feel like you were at war, consumed by isolation & fear.

After climbing the cliff-face, I discovered a bullet lodged into the mud. I wonder if my father shot this bullet, all those years ago.

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The Importance of Self-Discovery

The ability to be an independent individual who has fully discovered oneself is a rarity. Many of us breeze through life, living our almost forced realities while following the motto “life happened”. We rely on others far too much, how can we really understand who we are and what we really want in life when we seek the opinions of others to change our own minds? What we don’t understand is just how important self-discovery and independence really is.

The hardest part of getting to know yourself is without a doubt learning and accepting your flaws. This is so important, the fact that New Zealand’s suicide rate from 2002 – 2012 has stayed at a steady rate of averagely 11 deaths a year per 100,000 people. What is the main reason for this alarming suicide rate?

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A large contributor to these statistics includes self-esteem and bullying issues. If we are taught to control our bodies, to look after them physically and most importantly mentally, we should see a decreasing suicide rate in New Zealand. Even the ugliest things about you will bring the great sense of pride and fulfillment because, without them, you wouldn’t be you. After all, life is too short to spend it at war with your own mind.

We rely on others far more than necessary. We put out happiness in the hands of a significant other, as we think this will bring ourselves and them fulfillment. This is a critical error far too many people make these days. We don’t want to feel obligated and dependent on someone else, do we? Of course not. For some reason, people find it weird to go see a movie or sit at a café with a coffee by yourself. Why? You don’t speak to people while you’re in a movie theater, and what’s wrong with having some alone time in a café? We are unaware of how healthy these independent activities really are.

We must make decisions by ourselves, and for ourselves. We mustn’t ask for advice, place our responsibilities in the hands of others, and dwell on our flaws. In a certain way, we are born alone and we die alone, so it is our responsibility to look after ourselves and make the most of the time we have.

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.” – Steve Jobs.

 

RAW: 10 Reasons Why I’m Proud to be Called Crazy.

“Have you created a life for yourself where you’re free to experience all your darkest fantasies? I have. I am crazy. But I am free.” – Lana Del Rey

Not long ago, I had a bit of a revelation in my life, and now it’s time to reconnect with my inner self I once knew. What does that mean though, and how do I accomplish this? Simple – by being as crazy as I want to be.

What a lot of us don’t realize, is that we are the ones who control our lives, not anyone else. And if someone tries to take that power away from you, then it’s time to do some thinking as to whether you should be allowing that person to be in your life. I am sick of hearing people say, “life happened” when what really happened is that you gave up. You let this happen, and now you have to deal with the consequences.

So, that being said, I’ve put together a small list of reasons why I’m proud to be called crazy. I hope you can relate to some of these.

  1. Being crazy is who I am. Don’t like it? Leave.
  2. I get to have as much fun as I want.
  3. I don’t care about what people say/think about me.
  4. I get to talk to my cat and tell him how proud I am that he bet up the neighbor’s cat that tried to take his food.
  5. I’m crazy enough to choose to be happy.
  6. I can walk away from a high paying job, just because I knew it wouldn’t make me happy.
  7. I get to choose who I have relationships with – NOT the other way around.
  8. I don’t care about how much money I have.
  9. I couldn’t care less about being successful.
  10. I do however care about how much love I give to this world.

I’m done being the one who fails to surrender to the opportunities life throws at me. I am now choosing to fill my life with the experiences that make me the happiest and bring me the most joy. I couldn’t care less if anyone tells me otherwise.

And if all of that makes me crazy? Then I want to be crazy.

“That is the key of this collection, being yourself. Don’t be into trends. Don’t make fashion own you, but you decide what you are, what you want to express by the way you dress and the way to live” – Gianni Versace.

Adam Butchart, qualified and crazy journalist.